What a way to find out..

I just barely found out by random clicking and reading on Facebook that one of my friends died 5 days ago...  We weren't close and we never really talked but I know and love that whole group of kids he was in. They were the group I had tried to get into senior year of high school but only managed to get my leg in the door. You know, those kids that were always laughing and doing something crazy and just looked like they were the best friends that anyone could ever have. I got to know and love almost all of them..
We all went to sushi together just this summer for Connor's birthday... I remember Connor screaming Scott's name as he drove up. He was always such a good friend to everyone. Especially Connor. I wish I had known him better..  I always wished that.  He was such a great kid..  And now I'm crying in the middle of a group of studying kids.
I don't even know how it happened. No one said in all of the Facebook stalking that I did. They all just said really really awesome things about him that made me cry even more. I don't want to ask anyone..  and maybe I don't want to know. But I just hope he's doing better now and God can help him help all of the awesome friends he left behind.
Rest in peace Scott Neel.

Songwriters Showdown

So! I just competed in this songwriters showdown at Muse Muse and Cafe this week. It was a blast! I really got to see what other songwriters in the area are into and what's being made in Provo. There is some really cool stuff! My friend, Brady Parks, won the whole thing. He's AMAZING! Here's a link to his music >>click here<<  He's such a fun friend to have around. He really inspires me..
But that's the distressing news... I've only written one song since I've been here! I just have nothing to say! I don't know what's wrong! I'm just so..  blah lately. I'm starting to think college isn't my thing. I'm antsy. I want to write, hike, play and draw. I don't want to sit and study and listen to people talk at me. I like learning, but I don't like how much time I waste. Like the Hindu yogi told me "Don't let school get in the way of your education." But I need to graduate...  don't I?

"The question isn't who is going to let me, it's who is going to stop me."

- Ayn Rand 

Zesty zesty life. yum

So earlier this summer, I wrote up and posted my Bucket List. And because of that, I've been working on crossing them off my list (and adding along the way :]) because, hey! There's no time like the present to have an adventure! Since I wrote it, I've been able to cross off 3 of my adventures!

#1 Write, record and produce an album

done and done! :]

Then there was #10 Go whale watching

My dad and I went on an Alaskan cruise, that I wrote about a while ago, and got to go on a tiny boat with 4 other people and go whale watching in Juneau! It was magical! Whales are just.. ah! They amaze me. My mom says that when she got to go whale watching, she cried. It's so beautiful to be so close..

And #9 Get a faux hawk
That one happened just yesterday actually! I finally gathered my courage and went into get a haircut with a picture of a super short pixie cut. And I got it! My hair's gone! So then that night at the BYU vs Utah State football game, I gelled my hair into a faux hawk. I looked so punk rock! But, unfortunately, I did not get a picture of the event. But here's a picture of my new hair styled normally!

I love it :]  showering and blowdrying take almost no time now and I feel just.. very confident! I almost feel like I was hiding behind my "long" hair. Now everything's out there and I'm just saying "Hello!". I feel like it fits my loud, confident, quirky personality. I almost panicked watching all of my hair collect in a puddle on the floor, but after she was done, all I could say was "awww yeah".

I encourage anyone to start on a Bucket List. It seems to make life more exciting! You feel accomplished for doing amazing things with your time. It brings out a passion for living! That's what I strive for.

Love always,

Lexi